Now, I don't know if anyone has ever bothered to understand the meaning behind my name (probably not but for the sake of this journal, I guess I'll go through the details.) I have had this screen name since the early 2000s. I have used it for art related things, writing related things and has been transferred from one site to the next. The reason for this is because that's the one thing that had remained consistent in my life. The burning passion I always had for something; Be it a fandom, writing original stories, my characters & other projects... I was always excited about something. Even if it was a temporary distraction. Now... I feel like I have nothing to be excited about.
I'm not talking about personal life stuff... I have so much to do on that front that it's dizzying. What I mean is, that I don't feel anything sparking up that childlike excitement that I've always been used to having. It feels like the embers have grown small and it doesn't help that I don't feel like I have anyone to talk to about this. This is probably the reason for my recent art block... I think what I'm feeling is loneliness. I think I need to be part of something that makes me excited to work on art! I'm still part of SDL and am going to do another duel soon but I'm also trying very hard to finish my comic... It's taking me too much effort by comparison to other projects. Like there's a block in my chest.
But even SDL seems to have quieted and I don't talk to the people I did before.
So I'm alone again.
I think I need something short term to sink my teeth into so I can get back that fire and restart on my other projects. I dunno if I should join another group or if I should revive/make my own. I just want to feel other people's enthusiasm. I want to be part of something with a lot of energy. I might see what I can go about coming up with a plan to make make an SDL promo campaign to spread the word and get more people back into the group or at least to reawaken the people that have been inactive. I dunno...
If anyone has any suggestions for an active group (but honestly, Real Life doesn't give me lots of room to chat... I mean a group with active group activities) that I might be interesting it, feel free to suggest them. I might take a look. My favorite fandoms are: Kingdom Hearts, TWEWY, Okami, Avatar, Zelda, Final fantasy, Tron or any interesting Oc groups. I'm not doing pokemon (mainly because although I think it's cute I find it tedious to draw pokemon related things for some reason) but other than that, I'm all ears.
I just feel like I have no fuel to light my fire so I'd appreciate any help.
This is what I did since the last entry